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ntah maner silap nyer sejak 2 menjak nih asik sesitip jew xbtempat...mayb sbbkn bendera merah kn...n sejak 2 menjak nih teringt sgt kt arwah...Ya Allah kuatkn hati ku ini...ckp psl bendera merah nih fhm2 jewlar blum lg rezeki kica nk dpt adik...org ramai dh btanyer bler kica nk dpt adik...huurrrmmm blum ader jwpn utk itu...member baik ku maser poli baru beranak bln 4 tempoh hari dh tmbh lg sorg....bdk skolar aku dulu pon preg jugak....aku beranak dulu dr dier tp samer bln...mahu mmg mahu tpppppppp.......aku tau xder saper yg boleh jg aku btl2 selain arwah jg aku dulu maser dlm pantang....even maser aku preg arwah jg elok2 cucu dier tuh....asik tanyer dh mkn blum....sian cucu mak:'(....huaaarrgghhh Ya Allah aku xkuat utk ingtkn sumer menda tuh....dier tau aku xbleh bau masakan dier akan masak utk aku....siapkn bekalan utk aku pegi kije....mulianyer pengorbanan seorg ibu utk anak dan juga nenek utk cucu dier...maser aku dlm pantang tuh arwah jg aku dr muler smpai abis pantang...masak utk aku...siapkn air panas utk aku mandi.....siapkn sgala bagai jamu...mlyn kerenah aku yg mcm bdk2....Ya Allah klau arr aku tau koe lebey sygkn arwah dr kami dh lamer aku bdoa utk koe mberi kami rezeki yg xterhingga nih dr awal perkahwinan kami.....arwah pon prnh tanyer bler dier nk dpt cucu...bler dh dpt arwah xsempat nk jg dier n tgk cucu dier pandai jln or bcakap...sumer tuh sgtlar limit utk arwah....even maser arwah sakit pon dier masih lg bela cucu dier tuh...sakit2 pon dier gagahkn jugak jg even utk mengenjut buaian kica....alhamdulillah smnggu sblm arwah pergi dier sempat jumper cucu dier n main2 ngn kica....KAU lar yg maha mngetahui Ya Allah....aku percaya 1 hari nnti rezeki itu akan ader tp mungkin bkn skang sbb kubur arwah masik merah lg n aku klau bleh xnk susahkn mak mertua ku....even klau dier dkt pon aku masih raser malu nk mntk dier tlg aku....aku lebey rela utk jg diri sndri dr mnyusahkan dier....n aku akan lebey sedih bler mngenangkn arwah yg jg aku slamer nih kn skali servis btukar tgn pulak...tuh lg pilu....so klau bleh jgnlar ader lg org btanyerkn mgenai perihal ini which is the answer are still the same....I JUST CANNOT

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wasssuuuppp3...whatsappp mendanyer...nih bkn psl apps kew...kihihkih...well3...sgtlar 'bz' skang nih...smpai tertito jap...tpppppp wut makes me wanna write wassss...eng cam ntah3 paper kn...hahahhaa tbacer 1 artikel dr blogger fofular hamis jalikha a.k.a hanis zalikha...actually i xder arr free sgt smpai mbacer2 blog org nih...what makes me feel to open and read her blog just bcos of her telemovie name Mariam Kg Putat...i heard she was the main actress...so i pn sajer2 bkk...skali daaannngggg...sumthing capture from my eyes....her article names TAAT PADA BOYFIE....well tipu arr if i xcamtuh kn dulu...hhhuuurrrmmm xhengat sgt arr time2 bcenta sejak dh kawen n ader anak nih...bkn aper org kater bler kter dh beranak some of our memory akan ilang sbb kuat sgt PUSH...wutttt????PUSH??hahhahaa...klau beranak normal memey arr kena push...paper jewlar kn...dulu setau i lar i xder arr nk taat2 nih...just bcos nk jg hati org kter pon kena mnipu jugak....tp alhamdulillah at the same time i did that to my parents as well...bkn takat nk jg ati boyfie nih jew...sbb i know klau dh jodoh x ke maner sooooo saper dier nih nk kter dgr ckp or whatsoever lar kn...bek dgr ckp mak lg bgs sbb bler mak kter dh xder baru kter akan tpk naper dr dulu kter xdgr ckp mak klau x mesti menda nih xtjd....so sejak arwah mak pergi tnggl kn kami bsamer kekasihnyer yg abadi(lirik nk tiru malique jew kn-gedix) so far i've never felt any regrets or wut...just when she felt sicked i've done sumthing which when i remembered my tears will coming out...so dr mbiarkn air mata nih mgalir dpn2 staff n student di sini bek i thinked about it when i reached home or on my way back home....okeh so what i'm gonna to say here pompuan nih klau dh syg dlm2 kt sorg lelaki mesti dier dh did sumthing dluar jangkaan....dh tuh smpai kn sanggup mnangis xnk kuar bilik tkt kantoi mata lebam ngn mak hanya dsbbkn si boyfie nih xreply msg...WT*&%#^%@%....bodoh arr pompuan camnih...mayb sbb dier tkt lelaki tuh tngglkn dier kot sbb dier dh bg everything kn....nauzubillah...hanya ALLAH yg lebih mgetahui...what make me dare to expose here bcos i already know what they hv done at the back of people...muker punyer baik pijak semut xmati kottt...damnnn!!!!naper aku bleh tperdaya??patut arr ckp mak xnk dgr hari tuh sbb ader udang disebalik mee....owh u...yes u...bleh g blah arrr...raser cam nk pijak2 jew koe tau...aarrgghhh raser cam nk expose jew namer koe kt sini tp mcm lar koe bacer belog ku ini...hhmm its ok its alright....................tatatititutu